Monday, 31 December 2012

Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013! [Such a cliche title]

This year has been full of ups and downs. Life is after all like a roller coaster; it's exhilarating, nerve-wrecking and effing awesome!
That's what I like about life. Bittersweet or sour sweet; I love sour sweet candies.
Without those moments that make us feel like sh*t, life wouldn't be life.
It'd simply be 2 dimensional and not 3 dimensional that it is.
Those sh*tty moments are the flip side of the life we love, we WANT and only WANT.
However, there wouldn't be a good side to life without the former. They always come hand in hand.
I know many of us wish that life would have some kind of pause, stop, forward and backward buttons. Wouldn't life be more easier and happier? 
NO. N-O. Wrong. Those buttons would be a hindrance in our life.
If those really do exist, we'd all be pressing the pause and rewind buttons over and over again, just to make our life perfect. We'd never move on to the next stage of our life. We'd be stuck replaying again and again like a broken recorder.
Now, is that the kind of life you want?
I certainly don't.

Now that I'm done with my lil speech up there, I'm gonna head straight to the point to why I posted this.
I just wanna recount how the year 2012 has been for me.
It was really shitty(Let me type it once without censoring it. It's the last day of 2012 after all.) but not all that shitty. There were happy and sappy moments too, which I thought would never come.
So, here it is! I tried to remember as much but the memory department in my head is quite incompetent as of now.

Not in chronological order

Graduation Day <3

Adam Khoo's non-residential camp at the earlier part of the year

LOL D&T during June(?)

First ever choir workshop <3

Sports day! Woohoo!

Nata's last day in school :(

Prior to Graduation Day at Luke's place; preparing goodies for 4G2 <3

Hmmm... The official formation of the sisterhood <3
Dang it was painful


My first ever night mass. Taken outside the church.

The last time the three of us got to hang out and the same day the sisterhood was formed <3

Racial harmony day+National day

The first wedding I attended

Confirmation day <3


Thursday, 6 December 2012


Writing a story is hard. Well, for amateurs like me. The ideas are all over my head. I don't know where to start. Maybe I should just stick with designing furniture or whatsoever. But then again, I have to try out new things, right? La la la

Sunday, 2 December 2012

What's running through my mind?

Hello there fellow homo sapiens! How have you been doing? Enjoying the school holiday? Working? Or maybe just lazing around, bored to death?
Well, if you asked me, I've been kind of lazing around but not entirely. I don't want to be a couch potato(Even though I love potato. How ironic. Not.) As you know or probably not, I love reading. I love it so much that I would(sometimes) rather stay at home, get cozy on the sofa or my favorite chair with a novel than go to school or socialize. Such an introvert, aren't I?
After a very loooooooooooong time of not reading any real novels besides the stories on Wattpad, I found this book called Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. 
This book is so compelling, if not maybe life altering to some. 
Don't worry, this isn't going to be some boring book review blah blah stuff. I don't like boring stuff.

Now, this book made me realized so many things in my life as well as others.
How many of you have thought of suicide? You might not have thought of it that seriously. Maybe it just randomly came across your mind then it's gone as soon as it came. 
You might have thought of actually doing it when you've reached your tipping point.
I know some of you did. I know I did. I certainly know I almost did. 
Don't be. All of us are not perfect. Nobody's life is perfect.
It may look like it is on the outside. But trust me, everyone's lives are flawed some way or another.

When the topic of suicide comes up, you hear all sorts of reactions. Some say it's shameful, a cowardly action. Worst, they call those people who attempt it attention-seeking whores.
True, they want attention. But not that kind of attention. 
Somehow, deep inside, the reason why they want people to notice is because they want someone to help them. Someone to pull them back up because they can't. Someone to rescue them before they succumb to their emotions and get lost in that abyss.
So instead of throwing their weakness at their face, why not help? Help genuinely.

Every person we meet or just merely walked pass by has an impact on us and vice versa. 
But you probably don't know that or maybe you do.
No matter how big or little that impact is, it is an impact. It can have an affect on you or them.
You will never know what kind of effect your actions and the things you say will do to them.
The least you can do is smile or ask how they are.
But what's better? Think before you act.

Be more sensitive to the feelings of others. They may appear fine on the outside but they're probably not in the inside. I know this. I totally understand this.
Those simple smiles, hellos, how are yous and etc can help a person more or less.
It didn't completely help me but it made me feel better or happy and prolonged my stay here. 
I'm utterly grateful to those people.

I feel so much better now.


“You don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately, you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life. Everything. . . affects everything.” 

― Jay AsherThirteen Reasons Why

This is ain't some religious song, just so you know. 
It's for everyone to listen and relate to.

I <3 Sam Miller now
He's now included in my list of impossible idol boyfriend material.

Monday, 19 November 2012

Letting it all go..

I've never felt so free and relieved in my 17 years of life. I'm free from the burdens that I had been carrying for so many years. I'm relieved that I finally let go of those thrash. Yup, those problems were thrash.

In the beginning, I didn't really believe that attending Catechism classes would make any difference in my life, besides making awesome friends. But it did. It totally changed my outlook of life. I'd probably be a whole different person(in a negative way) today. A lost cause in other words.

These past few days have been so memorable and meaningful. Actually, scratch that. Every day, every hour, every second spent with my fellow D10 Youths, Catechists and Him is significant.

I'll never forget the lessons learnt and the fun times we had together.
Today was our Confirmation day. We finally received the last sacrament. However, this is not the end yet. It's just the beginning. Our first step. A stepping stone.


I know I'm not perfect. I'll never be. I'm just a mere human.
I know I still have a long way to go. Even if life throws stones at me, I won't be deterred easily. I won't lose sight of that light again.

Hebrews 12:3-6 ♥

One of my most precious possessions.
This rosary has been with me since I was in 2nd grade ♥
posted from Bloggeroid

Saturday, 10 November 2012

Diary Entry

My diary of five years has not been fully filled up yet. So far, I have around 28 entries in that book.
I actually bought it when I was still in primary school. Now that I'm in secondary school, its pages are still intact(surprisingly) considering the fact that I didn't really keep it in a safe place; my sister even got a hold of it but too bad some of the entries are written in Tagalog. Haha! Bleh!

Alright, so I was reading the entries and boy was I(and still) weird. I actually wrote down the names of my crushes from the time when I was still in Philippines till I was in Secondary one here; I already stopped doing that. Lol
Such a childish act XD
I also read my 2009 New Year Resolutions. 
I wanna share it here.. Hehehe..

Here it is!

2009 New Year Resolutions

1. Be nicer O:)
2. Be smarter(Every year I get smarter! Booyah!)
3. Be chubbier(I have a fast metabolism :/)
4. Try not to be nervous when making speeches(BLEH!)
5. Try not to be nervous or sarcastic around guys(HAHA! I was awkward~)


I managed to fulfill 1, 2, 3 and 5 :D
I'm still stuck with number 4
I have two or three more resolutions but those are a bit more private, so I'm not posting 'em here

Le sigh... A lot of things have changed. A lot of people changed. I changed too.
But I know that the old me is still here. It's a part of me. I can't get rid of it that easily. LOL
Embrace change!

Big changes. Life altering events. 
That's definitely going to happen next year.
Just hope for the best and prepare for the worst
I won't miss this place but the people I met.

"A place is only as good as the people you know in it..."

Friday, 9 November 2012

Live life with no regrets

Have you heard of YOLO(You Only Live Once)?
This phrase has annoyed many people; I'm excluded. It's because of its incessant and  inappropriate usage on the internet. But who am I to say that, right? 
People can live their lives how they want to.
Therefore, I can do whatever I want because it's my life, 
it's now or never. I ain't gonna live forever. I just wanna live while I'm alive

Alright, I kinda digressed a bit there. Back to the topic
That's why I'm going to tell him.
Yep. Like really tell him what I really feel even though I think he already knows.
I just want to unload this 'baggage' before flying off. No pun intended there.
You may ask how I am going to do that and to be honest, I don't know(I keep changing my mind. Yay for Libra traits!).
My friend gave a suggestion but I'm a bit of a pessimist when it comes to this kind of situation, so I don't think I'm gonna do that(The old fashion way; write a letter)
I'll just . . I don't know. LOL
Anyways, I have other MORE important things to think and do.
I won't dwell on that yet. The time will come, and that's like hmmm.. in a week or so?
For now, I'm gonna enjoy my dinner


Gosh I miss saying 'toodles'


Monday, 5 November 2012


Cause it's 12:51 and I'm still awake, it's going to be one
Lying on my bed, blogging at night again
And I can't sleep because of this thing called the internet and I had a long nap

Haha! Alright alright.. that's kinda lame.
But anyways, I finally uploaded the second chappy of my story on Wattpad! *Whoppeee!*
There's a higher chance that I won't drop this story since I will have about 4 to 5 months of holiday(I'm gonna be home-schooled for awhile. Boohoo!!)
Its genre is romance. Weee! I'm such a sucker for romance and chocolates :3
Just too bad that a few minutes after I uploaded my new chappy, Wattpad's site was suddenly down. I guess my chappy is so awesome that Wattpad couldn't take it and collapsed. LOL yeah right.

Here's my story! <3
I'm still an amateur to this, so constructive criticisms are welcome.
Even if I were a pro, they'd still be welcomed :)

Oh well, I have nothing else to add on. This post is what I call 'Out-of-the-blue post'
Didn't I tell you I'm random?


Sunday, 4 November 2012

Oooh! Church bells are in the air!

These past two days have been(weirdly) all about matrimony. Yep, all about marriage. Haha! Yesterday, I had a conversation with my friend about him. Somehow, we managed to digress to the topic of marriage. Well, not really sidetracked cause it was still related to him. Anyways, so we were talking about the possibility of him.. you know, liking me. But I know very well that that idea is not plausible. Call me pessimistic or whatever but that's what I think. I'm not going to hope that one day he'll like me too and then get crushed when he doesn't. Been there, done that and I don't want to experience it all over again. I just don't.
I'll just let myself like him without any wistful thinking. I mean, what else can I do? I can't possibly go up to him and say "Please like me back! I like you!"
That's just so desperate and not me. Any girl would think that's crazy.
So yeah. . . 

Enough with my current hopeless love life.
Let's talk about others' :)
Today, Emmanuel Choir got to sing in a wedding! It's not the first time but what made me so ecstatic is the fact that it is the first time I attended one. Did I tell you that I've always wanted to attend a wedding and be the flower girl?
Sigh . . Marriage is such a beautiful union.

The wedding booklet<3

With Kara and Jassy
gonna upload a better photo :3

The white dress, paired with gladiator sandals with heels that I wore<3


Saturday, 3 November 2012

Endings and beginnings

Well well well.. Hello, reader(s)! If there are any. Haha!

I made a promise to myself that I would make a new blog and continue writing my Wattpad story once this oh so dreadful national exam(O level; bleh!) is finished. So here I am, sitting here in front of the computer typing and typing and more typing this post. Let's get to the point. A new blog! Sorry, my 'grand opening' is nothing like those cutting of ribbon kind of events. Now, that reminds me of the opening of our running track last year. Hmm..
O Level hasn't officially ended for some; I'm one of the some. But I'm pretty much back to my perky self again.
K bye.
I gotta sleep!
There's a wedding I have to attend tomorrow.
No, it's not my wedding.
 I wish it was.