Sunday, 2 December 2012

What's running through my mind?

Hello there fellow homo sapiens! How have you been doing? Enjoying the school holiday? Working? Or maybe just lazing around, bored to death?
Well, if you asked me, I've been kind of lazing around but not entirely. I don't want to be a couch potato(Even though I love potato. How ironic. Not.) As you know or probably not, I love reading. I love it so much that I would(sometimes) rather stay at home, get cozy on the sofa or my favorite chair with a novel than go to school or socialize. Such an introvert, aren't I?
After a very loooooooooooong time of not reading any real novels besides the stories on Wattpad, I found this book called Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. 
This book is so compelling, if not maybe life altering to some. 
Don't worry, this isn't going to be some boring book review blah blah stuff. I don't like boring stuff.

Now, this book made me realized so many things in my life as well as others.
How many of you have thought of suicide? You might not have thought of it that seriously. Maybe it just randomly came across your mind then it's gone as soon as it came. 
You might have thought of actually doing it when you've reached your tipping point.
I know some of you did. I know I did. I certainly know I almost did. 
Don't be. All of us are not perfect. Nobody's life is perfect.
It may look like it is on the outside. But trust me, everyone's lives are flawed some way or another.

When the topic of suicide comes up, you hear all sorts of reactions. Some say it's shameful, a cowardly action. Worst, they call those people who attempt it attention-seeking whores.
True, they want attention. But not that kind of attention. 
Somehow, deep inside, the reason why they want people to notice is because they want someone to help them. Someone to pull them back up because they can't. Someone to rescue them before they succumb to their emotions and get lost in that abyss.
So instead of throwing their weakness at their face, why not help? Help genuinely.

Every person we meet or just merely walked pass by has an impact on us and vice versa. 
But you probably don't know that or maybe you do.
No matter how big or little that impact is, it is an impact. It can have an affect on you or them.
You will never know what kind of effect your actions and the things you say will do to them.
The least you can do is smile or ask how they are.
But what's better? Think before you act.

Be more sensitive to the feelings of others. They may appear fine on the outside but they're probably not in the inside. I know this. I totally understand this.
Those simple smiles, hellos, how are yous and etc can help a person more or less.
It didn't completely help me but it made me feel better or happy and prolonged my stay here. 
I'm utterly grateful to those people.

I feel so much better now.


“You don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately, you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life. Everything. . . affects everything.” 

― Jay AsherThirteen Reasons Why

This is ain't some religious song, just so you know. 
It's for everyone to listen and relate to.

I <3 Sam Miller now
He's now included in my list of impossible idol boyfriend material.

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