Monday, 31 December 2012

Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013! [Such a cliche title]

This year has been full of ups and downs. Life is after all like a roller coaster; it's exhilarating, nerve-wrecking and effing awesome!
That's what I like about life. Bittersweet or sour sweet; I love sour sweet candies.
Without those moments that make us feel like sh*t, life wouldn't be life.
It'd simply be 2 dimensional and not 3 dimensional that it is.
Those sh*tty moments are the flip side of the life we love, we WANT and only WANT.
However, there wouldn't be a good side to life without the former. They always come hand in hand.
I know many of us wish that life would have some kind of pause, stop, forward and backward buttons. Wouldn't life be more easier and happier? 
NO. N-O. Wrong. Those buttons would be a hindrance in our life.
If those really do exist, we'd all be pressing the pause and rewind buttons over and over again, just to make our life perfect. We'd never move on to the next stage of our life. We'd be stuck replaying again and again like a broken recorder.
Now, is that the kind of life you want?
I certainly don't.

Now that I'm done with my lil speech up there, I'm gonna head straight to the point to why I posted this.
I just wanna recount how the year 2012 has been for me.
It was really shitty(Let me type it once without censoring it. It's the last day of 2012 after all.) but not all that shitty. There were happy and sappy moments too, which I thought would never come.
So, here it is! I tried to remember as much but the memory department in my head is quite incompetent as of now.

Not in chronological order

Graduation Day <3

Adam Khoo's non-residential camp at the earlier part of the year

LOL D&T during June(?)

First ever choir workshop <3

Sports day! Woohoo!

Nata's last day in school :(

Prior to Graduation Day at Luke's place; preparing goodies for 4G2 <3

Hmmm... The official formation of the sisterhood <3
Dang it was painful


My first ever night mass. Taken outside the church.

The last time the three of us got to hang out and the same day the sisterhood was formed <3

Racial harmony day+National day

The first wedding I attended

Confirmation day <3


Thursday, 6 December 2012


Writing a story is hard. Well, for amateurs like me. The ideas are all over my head. I don't know where to start. Maybe I should just stick with designing furniture or whatsoever. But then again, I have to try out new things, right? La la la

Sunday, 2 December 2012

What's running through my mind?

Hello there fellow homo sapiens! How have you been doing? Enjoying the school holiday? Working? Or maybe just lazing around, bored to death?
Well, if you asked me, I've been kind of lazing around but not entirely. I don't want to be a couch potato(Even though I love potato. How ironic. Not.) As you know or probably not, I love reading. I love it so much that I would(sometimes) rather stay at home, get cozy on the sofa or my favorite chair with a novel than go to school or socialize. Such an introvert, aren't I?
After a very loooooooooooong time of not reading any real novels besides the stories on Wattpad, I found this book called Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. 
This book is so compelling, if not maybe life altering to some. 
Don't worry, this isn't going to be some boring book review blah blah stuff. I don't like boring stuff.

Now, this book made me realized so many things in my life as well as others.
How many of you have thought of suicide? You might not have thought of it that seriously. Maybe it just randomly came across your mind then it's gone as soon as it came. 
You might have thought of actually doing it when you've reached your tipping point.
I know some of you did. I know I did. I certainly know I almost did. 
Don't be. All of us are not perfect. Nobody's life is perfect.
It may look like it is on the outside. But trust me, everyone's lives are flawed some way or another.

When the topic of suicide comes up, you hear all sorts of reactions. Some say it's shameful, a cowardly action. Worst, they call those people who attempt it attention-seeking whores.
True, they want attention. But not that kind of attention. 
Somehow, deep inside, the reason why they want people to notice is because they want someone to help them. Someone to pull them back up because they can't. Someone to rescue them before they succumb to their emotions and get lost in that abyss.
So instead of throwing their weakness at their face, why not help? Help genuinely.

Every person we meet or just merely walked pass by has an impact on us and vice versa. 
But you probably don't know that or maybe you do.
No matter how big or little that impact is, it is an impact. It can have an affect on you or them.
You will never know what kind of effect your actions and the things you say will do to them.
The least you can do is smile or ask how they are.
But what's better? Think before you act.

Be more sensitive to the feelings of others. They may appear fine on the outside but they're probably not in the inside. I know this. I totally understand this.
Those simple smiles, hellos, how are yous and etc can help a person more or less.
It didn't completely help me but it made me feel better or happy and prolonged my stay here. 
I'm utterly grateful to those people.

I feel so much better now.


“You don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately, you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life. Everything. . . affects everything.” 

― Jay AsherThirteen Reasons Why

This is ain't some religious song, just so you know. 
It's for everyone to listen and relate to.

I <3 Sam Miller now
He's now included in my list of impossible idol boyfriend material.