Day 3 : My thoughts on 2016

If I were to be 101% honest with you, 2016 is the bitchiest bitch year so far. The year I felt like I was at my lowest. I felt so scared and lost even though my loved ones were around me. The year of self loathing. I thought I was going crazy with all the things that were happening. One after another. It's like getting punched in the face repeatedly, except there wasn't any physical damage. Oh how I wish I've gotten that kind of damage instead. Skin deep and heals faster.

Aaaaaaaaaand let's get on with the not so deep stuff hahaha. Where should I start hmmmm Makeup Trend, Dance Challenge, PPAP Song and etc.. Gawd damn so many. But one thing for sure, it was fun while it lasted even though some lost its novelty and got so annoying meh. Aren't most trends like that? All that hype and then boomz.

Day 2 : Write down one goal for 2017. Take it one step further and break that goal down into 4 smaller quarterly goals.

Get fit. Get Lit. Woo!

Just trying to get it rhymed haha. I think this was my goal a few months ago too? Not much progress to be honest nor did it get worst. This is more of a continuation of last year's. I guess I should give myself some props for getting onto Yoga at least once a week. Weeeeeeee! On a serious note though, after 2016, it made me realise that I shouldn't neglect my health. I may be all well now at this age but a few years down the road, my body won't be the same anymore. Y'know what they say, a healthy body = healthy mind.

Day 1 : Pick a word to guide your year. What does that word mean to you?

Guys did I ever tell you that the toilet is such a productive place? I mean, my ideas are always flowing out whenever I'm in the toilet. That's like my thinking place lmao. And that's how I came about with that one word to guide my 2017.

POSITIVITY

Kinda cliche I know but I think for this year and more years to come, I'll really need the positivity to give my motivation a push. What's a plan/goal if you don't have a driving force called Positivity, right? 

30 Days Blog Challenge

Good morning 2017! So I just remembered the 30 days photo challenges I used to participate in back in my younger days(secondary school duh haha) and I thought why not do the something similar for my blog. As you all know, or maybe not, I've been blogging since I was in Secondary One but my one major problem is that my content + blog activity tends to stagnate over the time. I want to change that, yet again. Hopefully this time round it work haha.  Before I get on with the list, I want to challenge my other blogger friend to do this mwahahaha. Kara (http://karamaearceo.blogspot.sg) if you're reading this, which you will. Teehee, I challenge you! Haha that sounds like some Pokemon battle challenge. Anywho, here's the list and the website from where I got it from 😊

http://textmyjournal.com/january-journal-prompts/

I hope that in this year to come, I make mistakes

We cry, we laugh, we get hurt, we find love, regrets, choices, sacrifices...

Every year is the same, one hell of a ride. We experience all sorts of ups and downs but what does change is how we approach each passing moment. There wouldn't be a good year without the bad, am I right?

2016 is no different, I've made stupid mistakes. Closed and opened some opportunities, even missed some. Sometimes I can't help but be stuck in that moment, unable to move on and pull myself back up. I would go over it again and again without much progress. Thus, wasting my precious time.

It's easier said than done to get back up after you get knocked down. You'll need the time and energy to get back up. In order to get your momentum back, you will need to start moving. It's liking riding a bicycle. You will need to get one foot down on the ground - keep yourself grounded and be realistic. Remember to get your hand on the handlebar - control what you can. And then you push with your foot to start moving. Now, if you're only learning how to ride a bicycle, there's no certainty you're going to ride your way down the beautiful sunset rainbow blah blah blah without much trouble balancing. You will inevitably waver and might even fall off or crash. It might take awhile for you to learn and you will make mistakes along the way. However, once you get a hang of it, you will not have any problem cycling wherever your bicycle may lead you to, maybe(Like have you seen those crazy cycling routes? Sorry kinda digressed haha). You'll learn from your mistakes and hopefully you won't make them again.

You could say life's moments is pretty much like learning how to cycle over and over again. 

Going to end this post with a quote from Neil Gaiman.

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something.

So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever.

Please please make it go away.

Childhood companion

My nightly companion since young
It's been a long time since you visited me
How have you been?
Why are you here?
Why now?
How long will you be staying this time round?
I thought you left for good
I thought I'd be happy to have your company
But it's quite the opposite
Every time you come by, I feel more alone
Sad
Frightened
Your presence doesn't fill the emptiness
It creates this void







Oh my lonely companion
Yòu make me dread the night