What a way to end my day

I feel so disheartened right now. Literally. Today was the beginning of our DPP class and it didn't go so well for me. Sigh pie. I even bought that horrid expensive and heavy book :(

Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh 

I just hope it's going to get better along the way

Adios

The one month long school holiday is coming to an end and I'll say hello to the new semester in NYP in a few hours time. I'm looking forward and not to it at the same time. Who looks forward to school for the sole purpose of getting tons of assignments, quizzes, tests and etc? No one! Lol kidding. I sometimes do. Shhhh!

Even though I didn't get to take the GSM of my first choice, at least there's French. I've been wanting to learn french since forever but I didn't have the time then and I don't wanna spend money. Stingy much? Haha! 

I can tell that this semester is going to be a lot crazier. Sometimes I wonder why I make such crazy decisions lmao. Like, why did I take DPP in Math. Usually, it takes a great deal of convincing myself to try something new. But this, this didn't take much time. I'd like to thank #yolo and God for making this happen. 

I don't even know how to start this post properly. Saying "Howdy, folks!" or "Wassup, people?" ain't cutting it anymore. That stuff gets pretty old quickly. Anyways, these past few months, I've been feeling a bit... no. "A bit" is an understatement. "Very" seems to be more fitting.
Very incompetent in every way.
I want to help but every time I try to, this voice in my head always hold me back.

"What difference can you make?"

"You won't make a difference."

"You'd just probably waste your and their time, so why not just shut your mouth before you say the wrong thing and make the situation worst."

Sound like excuses to you? I agree on that too.
I'm such a lame excuse for a human.
A coward too.

Undercurrent

Calm and composed on the surface but wrecked beneath

Yeah.....

I kind of forgot what I wanted to blog about but I swear it's not some random poop, I mean post like this one. Haha! May be I'll get back to you guys later? or a month later but knowing me, my 'later' is equals to '100000000 days later'. Kidding.

First School Holiday Of My Poly Life. Yay!

They said first year in Poly was easy. Easy! Well, let me tell you this, it ain't true(at least 60-70% of it)! There were so many projects due and along those projects were tests, quizzes and exams. Now, does that still sound easy? Haha 

Thankfully, holiday has arrived. It was faster than I thought or maybe I was having fun with my Poly life :)

You know what they say, "You lose track of time when you're having fun." 

This school holiday won't be the usual boring one for moi. In fact, there are a lot of things that will keep me busy and get my mind off some things :)

Work, a new hobby, hanging out with friends(I was such a couch potato last time. I'd rather stay at home and coop up in my bedroom, reading novels or E-books on Wattpad) and etc. 

Can't wait~

This new hobby is so tedious